i never used to beg you just to change your mind
i always used to bullshit just to help us unwind
i never really pleaded it was never in my plans
and I’m feeling so defeated though i never had a chance
a thousand different bottles should have guided me to you
but they’re the reason for the seasons where i never quite flew
it was easier to handle with your chest against mine
but now my ghosts are so alone they send a shiver down my spine
now I’m lying here awake
wondering how he got to see you in space
and my head’s angled up at the stars so I can see
but its making my neck hurt
i’m at the back of the line but you don’t seem to care
i’m just biding my time until my brain cells wear
thinking maybe that if I remember
You’ll remember
We’ll remember
he’s a good good guy
what happened to the nights when we would drink till it was bright?
is it me who’s any different? pretty sure i’ve got it right
you always used to jump me when your friends were out of town
now your legs are constellations and I’m planted on the ground
so now I’m lying here awake
wondering how he got to see you in space
and my head’s angled up at the stars so I can see
but its making my neck hurt
i’m at the back of the line but you don’t seem to care
i’m just biding my time until my brain cells wear
thinking maybe that if I remember
You’ll remember
We’ll remember
remember decorations on your sofa that were burned in my arms?
remember celebrations where we tossed a stupid ball in the yard?
i should have contemplated getting swallowed right up into the sand
it’s underrated when you have no skin in the game
and half a bottle left in both of your hands
well i never used to beg you just to change your mind
i always used to bullshit just to help us unwind
i never really pleaded it was never in my plans
and i'm feeling so defeated though i never had a chance
not a chance
credits
from Space / Twelve Tattoos,
released March 23, 2018
Written & Recorded by Christopher John
Mastered by Gus Elg
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